Specifications

Notebook:

Laid flat.

Smooth, thick paper.

Binding broke towards the end.

Didn’t sticker well.

Reflections

Progress

I flipped through the pages of this sketchbook a couple times. Around February, I bought a 0.25 pen (pentel slicci). Ink leaks onto the page, whereas graphite scratches.

I drew a couple sketches that I enjoyed to look at.

I felt as thought I improved over this period. I don’t believe this is the case.

Stagnation

I cannot see very much improvement between December and March. I just see a different type of line. This crushes my spirit a bit.

When I’m apart from my sketchbook, I feel like I’ve improved. When I flip through, I observe stagnation.

The gumgum galaxy taught me I cannot trust my eyes. Not sure what to do.

Colour

I developed a habitual tick during this period. Each week, I’d buy a couple of pencil crayons from Wallacks. I use Lyra Rembrandt-Polycolors. These are oil-based. I hold their butts close to my eyes and think about the colours I look at. Then I choose a small palette for the day.

Lyra Rembrandt-Polycolors don’t snap or crumble because of their chemical makeup. They also don’t blend very well. I like oil-based pencil crayons. I don’t like wax-based pencil crayons. Their led snaps often, but they blend and layer well, so maybe I need to be less rigid.

cobalt and violet

Deep cobalt (2000043) and light violet (2000039). Somethings about these colours.

I can’t find the words to describe the sensation. I like looking at them.

I talked to Claude. It told me about colour theory. This bled into Accidental Dignity. I haven’t been able to replicate what emerges with these two colours again.

Summary

On good days, my sketchbook feels like an extension of me. On bad days, it feels like a protrusion that evidences my lack of capacity. I’m not sure how to balance these things.

I don’t know if I’ve gotten any better.